One thing that I wish I never have is the " I DISLIKE YOU" attitude...
When I start to dislike someone, it would be hard for me to like them back...

Many reasons can contribute to why I dislike others...
Maybe they always lie at me when I ask them abt something...
Or maybe when they are so boastful and annoying everytime I saw them..
Or peoples who are so demanding w/out thinking whether I can provide what they need or not...
Or even with others who always seem to disagree with my opinions....

So, you can see that it is hard for me to forgive someone who have all the traits above...
We always said, I forgive you but actually it will only be totally forgiven if we totally forget all the bad thing peoples do unto us...

I'm the "Forgive but not forgotten" type of people...
I may said " Ok, I forgive you" but "No, I may not forget"

This is not what our good Lord had teaches us...
When we forgive, we should forgive completely w/out any residue of hate left in our hearts....

I'm so ashamed of myself....
I tried to forget but it is so hard to let go of all the "kegeraman, kebencian, kemarahan"...

I hope one day I will discover the power of forgiveness and defeat the evils that always looking for an opening to tempt human like me...

AMEN.

GOD BLESS;

Greetings!

Finally it is Easter after 40days of fasting Lent month...

To say the truth, I didn't put a lot of efforts and didn't took the opportunity to be a better Christian during Lent...

I should be ashamed...

I kept on fell into temptation especially when it came to dealing with persons that I dislike...

One thing I learned, the thing that we should fast are the things that we love to do and we know that the things that we love to do are not a under the category "benda-benda baik"...

Things such as "mengumpat"

Things such as "laziness"

Things such as "pemboros"

If we concentrate on fasting on foods alone,

Well, it can be done anytime, which in everyday life we call it "dieting"

If we can reduce or completely erase our "mengumpatness, pemalasness,pemborosness" and any other "sikap yg kurang baik" nature, that's what we call a "Puasa Yang Benar"...

Or during the holy month of Lent, we try to forgive those peoples we dislike the most...

I'm ashame of myself..

I am bless with all this knowledges but I do not take even a single step to practice it...

I'm not proud of it...

I know I'm a sinner and I'm not perfect but I'm not proud of it...

Why should I be proud when I know the fact that I can change myself at least to be a better human but I never even bother to try....

There are no excuses for that...

Forgive me Lord for I have sinned...

Eventho' I was defeated...

I will try again and again and again...

Don't let me take your blessing for granted...

But guide me to fight all the evil temptations and bless me with your love and strength so I may use all these graces that you gave me for the good of others and myself...

Lord, you are risen...

And You will come again.

May all of us are ready for your second coming to the earth..

Amen.

Happy Easter.

GOD BLESS;

Maybe for once..

Shows some respect when you are in a church...

I'm not judging..

All that we do in life...

We are the one who bear the consequences...

The good or bad..

Only God can decide...

We have 7 days in a week..

And like me who only attend church once in a week for Sunday Mass or sometimes during sunset mass, I try my best to dress appropriately..

What I mean by appropriately dress?

Tot wear something that is not too revealing...

Not to flashy...

I know, semua dari hati kan...

Yang penting kalau pigi church, hati mesti ikhlas...

Apa-apa yg kena pakai pun, nda kisah...

But actually, the case is, if you are really-really sincere, you won't dress inappropriately...

Because we are there to pray, to praise and listen to the beautiful words of God...

Not to show off what we got...

And to listen to the lessons given by the priest..

Not to treat church as a fashion parade....

The mass took only about 1 1/2 hours max....

Is it very hard to dress nicely for only this duration of time?

Furthermore, we are provided 6 days, in our disposal, to wear anything that we like (or naked also can if you want)...

Why we don't we take the effort to wear appropriately for only a short time?

I'm not judging or said that this is wrong...

But I just feel it is not right...

This body is the temple of God..

So, treat it nicely...

AMEN.

GOD BLESS;

My heart and prayers goes to the tsunami & earthquake victims in Japan

I'm sad...

heartbroken...

It happened just in a blink of an eyes...

Mother nature had showed her true nature and shows us that the reality is, we are living in a temporary world...

Where every God's creations, when the time comes, will leave this world forever...

For all these times,

We live our lives like there is always tomorrow..

But, the truth is..

Life is so short..

Death comes unexpected..

There will be no warning...

When things like this happened,

Then we realize that " The end is near"

" Repent"

But God's did say " I will come in the middle of the night like a thief " which means we will never know the second coming of the Lord...

Do we need a reminder to make us repent?

Do we need to see all the signs before we can truly believe that Judgment day is coming?

Do we need to wait for all these things to happen before we truly believe and repent all of our sins and back to God?

I'm a sinner..

And truly is..

I'm so scared...

Because I know I'm in the category of peoples that think that we can live forever...

I'm so scared because I have sinned and I know the consequences of it...

I'm scared because I'm a sinner...

Lord,

I'm unworthy to be your children,

In my life, seldom did I do according as your wills..

I fall into temptations of the evil...

Lord,

Give me the strength to fight back all the evils and all the bad temptations..

Do not let me take your unending blessings and love for granted....

Show me the way of your love so we may live this temporary life according to your teaching...

Lord,

I pray also for those peoples in Japan which were affected by the tsunami and earthquake..

Gives them comforts, strengths in this times of difficulties...

Bless those souls who had perished in this tragedy..

Amen.

KAU YANG TERINDAH
Robert & Lea Sutanto

KAU YANG TERINDAH
DI DALAM HIDUP INI
TIADA ALLAH TUHAN YANG SEPERTI ENGKAU
BESAR PERKASA PENUH KEMULIAAN

KAU YANG TERMANIS
DI DALAM HIDUP INI
KUCINTA KAU LEBIH DARI SEGALANYA
BESAR KASIH SETIA-MU KEPADAKU

REFF:
KUSEMBAH KAU YA ALLAHKU
KUTINGGIKAN NAMA-MU SELALU
TIADA LUTUT TAK BERTELUT
MENYEMBAH YESUS TUHAN RAJAKU

KUSEMBAH KAU YA ALLAHKU
KUTINGGIKAN NAMA-MU SELALU
SEMUA LIDAH KAN MENGAKU
ENGKAULAH YESUS TUHAN RAJAKU

My last post was on OCT, 21st

I have many things to share in here..

But as always...

My laziness is stronger than my will to write a new post...

INSANE

I'm always going down to Papar to check my work there...

And always,

I will see this one man, sitting, eating his foods and seem like he's talking to himself..

He can always be seen near the fruit stalls a few kilometers before Papar town...

And yes,

Like my bold title up there,

He is mentally ill or directly saying insane, crazy, mad...

We,

Peoples with sound mind will see this madman as something of an eyesore..

Or someone that is doesn't belong...

But seeing this madman everytime I go down to Papar...

Made me to to think...

Compare to us (normal human being with sound mind)...

This madman could be happier than us..

He live in his own world, oblivious to the world...

His own world could be a happy place....

He doesn't care abt money, cars, house or any other richness in this world..

He doesn't care abt how he may look to others...

He doesn't care abt anything..

When he is hungry or thirsty...

He knows how to find it...on his own way....

My point is....

We peoples keep on complicating our own life when actually there are a ways for everything...

Lord sent us to this world for a certain missions...

And we may not realizing it but some of our missions is actually already been accomplished...

See this madman...

Lord won't make him that way for nothing..

There must be a reason for that...

Maybe Lord sent him to this world as a reminder to us...

That life is temporary...

And seeing this madman can live his life to the fullest even in his own world that different than our world...

Why shouldn't we do the same...

I think God want us to be the best in our life everyday...

It is not obstacle free..

But God promise to be there for us..

In every second of our life...

"Ask and you may be given"

That's God's promise to us...

Seeing this madman...

Humbles me....

Because I know Lord love each of his creation...

No matter who we are....

And I won't take God's love for granted...

I will use God's love as a my key of survival..

As my key of happiness....

Because I am here in this world because God loves me....

GOD BLESS;

I believe everything happen for a reason....
In this struggle of living life...

Often we fall down..
Not once or twice...
But many times....

But we always back up on our knees....
Sometimes we are up in no time..
Or sometimes it takes a whole lot of time...

I've not updated this blog for quite a while....
Not that i have nothing to write...
Many actually...
But when the ideas coming in...
The laziness & procrastinate me also crept in...

Life at work has not been easy lately...
Pressure from clients...
Pressure from the top..

Sometimes I'm not sure if I can take any more of it any longer..
Look likes GIVING UP is the only option...

Am I that weak Lord...
Am I the kind of creation that give easily on obstacles of life....?

Last 2 weeks Psalm..
God reminded me that He always there for me..
No matter what happen to my life....

Life is hard...
Sometimes it have no mercy....

Lord Jesus is the true source of strength....

Every morning I pray....
*Lord, give me the strength I need today because you know Lord, I'm nothing without your power to guide me and show me the way*

I feel weaker day by day....
It come after another....


But I know I'm in this world not to whine and surrender...
I have a purpose...
I don't know what my purpose is but I believe that I have one..

Or maybe all along my life...
I'd changed others life....

Dear Lord..
I have many weaknesses..
And you know my capabilities...
I prayed....
Please grant me your strength....
Because I can't walk through this valley of life alone....
I need your love and blessing in every second of my life...

I need you Lord....

AMEN.

GOD BLESS;